Telling the truth.

It was noon time in the day September 18, of the year 2010.  I was busy texting my classmates.. 

and I was texting the person whom I considered a special one to me, he was also my classmate and a very close friend. 

We were texting, very much likely for a while now. He was the one whom I feel comfortable with, every time I would be with him. He would make me laugh.. Telling good jokes.. and especially he makes me smile. 

 

I told the my true feelings for him, but through our little communication only. He was flattered, that I really like him, but then I know he doesn't feel the same way as I am. He said, even though I told him that, he wants us to remain good friends, he understands what I feel. And I thank him for that. But then I still can't help myself that why won't he accept me. I know there are things that he really looks for a girl, and not even one of it, I had. But then it's okay, because I know someday I'll find mine.

He even quoted "MAYBE WE CAN BE TOGETHER, WE'LL SEE, ANYTHING CAN HAPPEN".

 

FALLING MY HEART OUT.

It was the birthday of my classmate at a restaurant here in our town. We all gathered there, and party all night long. It wasn't that child party, I mean hello, we're all teenagers!! not little children. okay.. anyway, there I admit to myself that I am falling in love with one of my closes friend and classmate. I can't help but fall for him, we were very close. Until that day came, it was the typical teenage birthday, karaokes, eating, partying!


We were in a different table, there I realize, he was with my classmate who was so pretty, I was so jealous. But then I just let it passed through. He looked at me, for a while. It was awesome, we were exchanging smiles, but as the party continues. He just would speak to me often, I felt out of place. Because without him, speaking to me, it's like NO FUN. And then, we went in partying, that was the part that I didn't really like the most about that day.


I was up for it, dancing with my heart out, like no one was watching. It was fun while it lasted, the music was up to the beat, then it became slow LOVE music, I notice. He was going to dance with another girl, I couldn't watch this, I said to myself. I ran out the room, and went outside. It hurts. Watching him, with another PRETTIER girl than me. it made me feel, like I was just nothing. Nothing to him, but only a little sister or just a friend? 


As I went outside, my friend, comforted me, she knew what I was going through, I was in the position of loving someone without him loving me in return. I was hurt so badly. I decided to go home, and just forget about that. I just wanna move on, and stop expecting him, to love me. Because I know, he doesn't feel the same way for me.