21.12.10

broke my heart again.

At first akala ko, I was only dreaming. That the feeling wasn't true and I could just wake up from this horrible nightmare. But then hindi pala. It was true and it was happening right before my two eyes. Why do I need to know, about these things, I know in myself, that someday I have to face this kind of truth that someday I might discover.It was the night of 19th of December in the year 2010. It was cold night, and I was going to the plaza, because there was an event and it was huge. There were many people and it jam-packed! In my mind, I was looking for a person, particularly that person was special, special to me and my heart. I kept on looking for him, then suddenly.
*POOF* 
My wish of him being there, was heard. I was super happy and has that kiligness in me, but as I look back again to see him, I saw a surprise. A surprise that was never meant for me to see.
He was with a girl, apparently that girl for me was maybe his girlfriend, yes! his girlfriend. I was in shock, I try not to look back, but I did. Because maybe I was only dreaming or I call it, hallucinating. But I was wrong, it was happening right before my eyes. I looked at his face, he was very happy. THEY were very happy, looking at each other's eyes and holding each other's hands. They were sweet, but my feelings turned into SOUR. I looked how he said goodbye, I was so hurt that I looked away. But I thought, he would go, I was wrong. I was purely WRONG.

He was apparently looking at me, looking at him. He was like shocked when our eyes met, it was like he discovered something. I saw his face, it was in shocked mode.He was in total surprise. We like starred at each other for quiet a while. And for me, I ended that starring contest.

After a while, I saw him again. I was too in total shocked of what I had seen. I was slowly thinking and keeping myself from crying. And keeping my tears to fell. And in a quick blink, he was walking towards me. And he sat down beside me. If that happening didn't happened, I should have enjoyed him sitting by my side, but it was total opposite. I felt, uncomfortable. Unease and Hurt. I can't even look at him. But I tried too, then I notice he was looking at me. I was feeling it. I try to read his body language, but I can't.

He was moving like uncomfortable too. Like he was having a big problem in his life. I don't really know why, he was acting that way. Moments later, he was gone. And night became history.

A history, a happening that hurt my heart and let me shed into tears, once more in this year.