an emotional roller coaster christmas

i think my title says it all.
 its the week of Xmas, it began from Sunday 19th of December.

it was a Sunday, when i had discovered something that shocked my soul but also my heart. it had a big impact in my heart. this discovery led into a heart break. it was difficult. and most especially i was hurt. hurt so bad that i almost cried. which i did not do. because, tears make me weak and i'm gonna prove to him that i'm strong. strong enough to continue the journey even without him.

it continued for the next day (20th of dec.)
but i had to be strong, i had to be. but keeping it a secret from your friends, is not that easy. i mean they are your friends, especially when they know, what was going on in your life. i told them, one my friends reaction was she was kinda sad, because she was this girl, who really wanted me and him to be together forever, but then there are endings. she was shocked and sad at the same time, she couldn't believe it. it was a very touchy scene when friends would help you in times when your down and feeling sad, there's always a shoulder to cry on. and girl friends to let your emotion out.

21st of dec. came.
it was fast. it was like it speed-ed up. it was only sunday back and now tuesday. time is fast, but it take some time to heal the wounds left in my heart. and this time, i was slowly recovering from that accident in my heart. but turn's out to be, it even worsens it. i got to see him again, in a meeting in our club. it was hard to see him there. real hard. seeing him again, it was like getting hurt again, it's like internal bleeding, it hurts in the inside but not really seen on the outside. i couldn't help to look at him and him too. but then i realize, maybe he's not really the guy for me, maybe i should just let him go.

22nd - 23rd of dec. approach.
2 days i hadn't seen him, and in that i talked to some of my friends. poured my emotion out. then i realize in one particular song, made me realize that i don't really need him, i could still continue this journey alone. i could. i learned to move on. and step by step to forget about him. making some slight changes. like not often thinking about him and us. and slowly, i'm standing up.

24th of dec. had passed.
it was again another meeting in the club, and as usual. i saw him again. but then, i had this different feeling, it was a feeling of being free. and now, for him, he's only a part of my history, my past. letting him go, wasn't easy but look at the reward it was nice and fulfilling. and in that time, i noticed, now it was him hows trying to get my attention. i was kinda irritated to him, because he was this guy who wants to get all the attention, making jokes. which for me aren't really that funny. he was so irritating.

25th of dec.
xmas. again, i said to myself, before xmas. my classmates would problem they would be so lonely this xmas, and i would usually say, that's only you, not me. but look at me now, it was the exact opposite. i became the lonesome, i had a heart break during xmas break and it wasn't easy. being hurt and letting go and start all over again. but then, a sudden hit.
i saw him again, while i was strolling around with my friends, i was this chit chatter, my mouth was on fire, non-stop of talking. then i realize i passed by him, he was also talking, when i had passed by, it was a sudden thing, i looked at my side and there he was. sitting and talking with his friends. and as i looked at him, he stopped. we were staring at each other's eyes, for a quiet a while. but it was long i think. it cut it. because i had to, 'coz as i have said, i was through with him. i was finished. but after that, my heart was pounding very fast. and i didn't know exactly why. but it just felt that way.

26th of dec. flew
once, again, i saw him. another gathering in our place and this time, he would still like seek my attention. looking at me once in a while, when our eyes would meet.

in this week of a hell of an emotional roller coaster, it had taught me many things.
to love, lo let go, to move on and to start all over again.
maybe that's how love and life is.

-there's still this little feeling i couldn't explain, but one thing i can say. i will truly miss him.

getting over.

it's been days, that my heart was once broken, and twice this year. maybe love doesn't really fits in my life. but of all people why me. why should love take me for granted. why me. i think there is a reason behind it, maybe i need to learn my lesson, for the next time that i would try having another love thing, i would not make a mistake again for the third time.
but speaking about him. well, i'm over him, last time i saw him was at a meeting in our club, at first it was hard not to stare at him, or even smile at him 'coz somehow it still hurts. but then, when i would do that, somehow it feels good, not to talk to him or when your eyes would not meet. it felt, that your free. now, i think we have departed our own ways. my friends told me, that there is someone out there for me. much more than him, and i mean there are so many guys out there anyway. but at the back of my mind, i would really miss the times we would stare at each other because now, it would just be the past. a part of my history.  but we have to move on, and change. because it's for the better. i'll try to move on, taking it step by step. though my xmas would be not what i expected it to be, at least now, i know what it is.

moving on.

my song for you. though the words are a bit hurtful, but it is true.
let's all just move on and just remember the good and fun times we shared together.

broke my heart again.

At first akala ko, I was only dreaming. That the feeling wasn't true and I could just wake up from this horrible nightmare. But then hindi pala. It was true and it was happening right before my two eyes. Why do I need to know, about these things, I know in myself, that someday I have to face this kind of truth that someday I might discover.It was the night of 19th of December in the year 2010. It was cold night, and I was going to the plaza, because there was an event and it was huge. There were many people and it jam-packed! In my mind, I was looking for a person, particularly that person was special, special to me and my heart. I kept on looking for him, then suddenly.

*POOF* 

My wish of him being there, was heard. I was super happy and has that kiligness in me, but as I look back again to see him, I saw a surprise. A surprise that was never meant for me to see.
He was with a girl, apparently that girl for me was maybe his girlfriend, yes! his girlfriend. I was in shock, I try not to look back, but I did. Because maybe I was only dreaming or I call it, hallucinating. But I was wrong, it was happening right before my eyes. I looked at his face, he was very happy. THEY were very happy, looking at each other's eyes and holding each other's hands. They were sweet, but my feelings turned into SOUR. I looked how he said goodbye, I was so hurt that I looked away. But I thought, he would go, I was wrong. I was purely WRONG.

He was apparently looking at me, looking at him. He was like shocked when our eyes met, it was like he discovered something. I saw his face, it was in shocked mode.He was in total surprise. We like starred at each other for quiet a while. And for me, I ended that starring contest.

After a while, I saw him again. I was too in total shocked of what I had seen. I was slowly thinking and keeping myself from crying. And keeping my tears to fell. And in a quick blink, he was walking towards me. And he sat down beside me. If that happening didn't happened, I should have enjoyed him sitting by my side, but it was total opposite. I felt, uncomfortable. Unease and Hurt. I can't even look at him. But I tried too, then I notice he was looking at me. I was feeling it. I try to read his body language, but I can't.

He was moving like uncomfortable too. Like he was having a big problem in his life. I don't really know why, he was acting that way. Moments later, he was gone. And night became history.

A history, a happening that hurt my heart and let me shed into tears, once more in this year.

J U N I O R S xx P L A T I N U M (xmas 2010)

the J U N I O R S batch held a Xmas Party last Thursday (9.12.10) in our school, it was a morning activity and in the afternoon was the per section Xmas Party. At first, it was kinda fun, having those Xmas presentation per section and ours was unlikely not really that prepared but it was F U N :) 

we had these very W E I R D  games that made some my batch mates laugh out L O U D!!

as the program ended, we preceded to our own Xmas Party by section and to my section P L A T I N U M, 
I go. We really didn't have a proper program or something, but all in all I had fun too, though it was kinda not really that nice in all, but it sure made me tired. we even had a mini party-party! it was fun, dancing all out, and like's nobody is watching. it was super fun. 


we of, course had our usual E X C H A N G E gifts, it was nice. we even had to teased some of our classmates, it was super enjoy to the M A X! , while me i got a really cute bunny stuff toy! it was sooo C U T E, though it wasn't really that big enough for me to hug it, but it was still adorable. the party had ended, and we bid our goodbyes but it wasn't the last time, we would see each other, well, maybe for some of us. 
the day was still amazing, even though we were expecting a worse Xmas Party for our section turn out to be a nice one. i hope next year, it will be better and bigger :)

T.L na ba ako, sa kanya?

i'm not really that sure, if this feeling i have for someone new, is the real one. and if he feel s it too. i don't wanna make the same mistakes again. but these feelings are for another guy. i mean, the thing i had on the past was just forgotten and just flew away and faded like memories. i mean, past is past right? and now present is even much more heavier. 


let me start from the beginning of this story.. the part in which i met a new person that change me.


i met him, well apparently got his name during the Intramural Event of the School, by the month of august.
i'd known his name there, because he was playing for the volleyball team for the J U N I O R  S !
i did notice him, his killer spikes and best attacking moves, made me idolize him, but i think now, it's more than that! ♥♥


his name is DJ. the name i now, put at my id :)


it was a while, that i hadn't seen him since then, then it was the SK election occurred at late November. there i had seen him once again, our eyes met, for the first time, i was feeling this butterflies were on my tummy, i couldn't really explain this feelings but it was good and nice :)..


during the FCDSA meet, i had seen him again, he wasn't a player, but rather a supporter. when we saw each other, our eyes again met, but it was only for a while. But the feeling was still there, even though it has been weeks that I hadn't seen him. the feeling of missing him, was in my mind and soul, I couldn't resist but to stare at him, but that is like much more like a weirdo!?.. 
okay, anyways..


another more weeks had passed, since that I hadn't seen him, until the day of 28 of November.


the SK officials of our barangay, of course including me had our Victory Party in a local beach resort here in our town. One of my co-kagawads was his barakda, and I was really expecting him to be there, but it was in the back of my mind ONLY! And in instant, my wish had come true, I saw him, approaching to our cottage, I really couldn't believe what I was seeing, did he read my mind? or my heart? :)


My co-kagawad, was looking at me like he was going to do something..  And well, he did. He was the reason why me and DJ had met. And I owe him big time. 


He called me and said, DJ wanted to talk to me, afraid and so modest of me, I didn't approach, simply I was thinking way to advance or something.. 
So I didn't believe him. Another one, had happened. While I was playing beach volley, the ball went to their side of the cottage, I didn't mind DJ, I took the ball, without noticing that his barakdas were their, they teased him to me and me to him. HAY!! 


And the fun didn't stop there, the day was about to end, and he did what he did, we talked but only for a little while. He was so silly and "MAKULIT!" like a little child and OMG, we had a group picture, I still keep his picture and I even made it a wallpaper in my phone :)


The day had end, and it was the most AWESOMEst day of my life! the weekends ended with a smile in my face and in my heart ♥


Monday, came, and one my classmate approach me. She was the current girlfriend of co-kagawad, she told that guy that i was crushing with his barkada, for me it was super okay, because it was the reason why we even spoke to each other, I was to HAPPY to be mad.


Wednesday had came, and it was unbelievable! It began with a text, saying he wanted to know me more, I mean to really know me more. I was sooo like flying in the clouds above, it was like my heart was having this feeling of LOVE! I almost cried for joy, and I don't even know why.


Nightfall, came and I saw him, he was staring at me eyes soo deep. That it like melted my heart away, we didn't speak to each other yet, I was afraid to make the first move also. 




The next few days, were amazing he was going to school, and that made me kilig to the bones :)
 One time, he was all dressed up, but we didn't talk to each other, but my question is why was he soo dressed up?, he was only in school? btw, he looked very handsome and cute! Damn! I did made the right decision. 


Up until now, the feeling is still here in my heart. I couldn't really explain what these feelings are but they are sure making me happy everyday :)


And this XMAS I'm hoping that this friendship or something would be nice, not the other one, 'coz I've move on and now, I have found SOMEONE NEW :)

Reminiscing our time together

it was a hot Saturday afternoon.

me and my service buddies// friends// barkada met up to bond again, because I already transferred they wanted to see me, I want to see them to. 'Cuz I'd really missed them..

First me and 3 of my friends (ame, rodjie, and joyce)
went to the house of our other friend (chamie). Well, we waited for her pa, (ang bagal niya hah). hehehehehe..
So, after we waited for her, we went to the nearby pizza parlor to buy some PIZZA while watching a mOVIE.. (nice!)

and during the ride way home, we rode in a truck which was owned by Joyce.

and I just notice that the 3 of us were wearing Yellow, it was the color of the day :D..

as we arrived in Ame's House (which was nice)... and the dogs are soooo cute!

 we planned to watch Paranormal Activity 2 with pizzas and chocolates, not your nice combination, but it was yummy. Especially, when your'e watching a scary movie like Paranormal Activity. 

after watching the movie, we went to Joyce's house, and I just notice that my one of my slipper is broken. It was bitten, by a puppy, oh! well, I really didn't get mad and all that.

After, going to that house, me and the group went DIKE, like a Manila Bay, here in our town, it was windy and was about to rain, but glad it didn't :)

Evening came, and it was time to say goodbye, I really had fun and enjoyed the whole day with them, because I had sacrifice, watching the Men's Volleyball team play their championship game just to see these guys, that's how much I love my FRIENDS. :)

My Odd Monday

I can't believe this day, this morning.

I went to school, late! as usual...
The flag ceremony, was as always HOT!. And the first subject, chemistry... All i can say is, wow! I understood it now, but can you believe it. The teacher gave us an assignment, but the due was in our second meeting with her, and that is just 2 hours away! WTF* .. WTH*..

the second subject arrived and it was Geometry! oh my god! It's the subject I .... I... it's juts my heartbeat beats fast than normal at this 1 full hour.. it's like.. tug tug tug tug tug... x100...

And to my surprise a recitation, my heart was beating so fast, from Chemistry hell, to Geometry hell times 2!
When my teacher, called my name, my heart was pounding a million times!!... it was like WOAH*

the question was something to do with an INTERSEPTIVE ANGLE.. but to my surprise I answered it, it was correct!

yeah! me!! :) .. so proud of myself! :) *clap2*

The next subject came, English, then we had a QUIZ! no... it was definition of words from the Glossary, only a few words I knew, but then I had good score naman! *hehehehehe*

and Chemistry again, dun na naka gawa ako ng assignment?

assignment ba yun, we made it only for 2 hours and in school pa?!

anyway, another quiz, hay naku, i can't really get myself, i had a high score in my homework but in my test i had a low score, 'bat ganun?

This morning talaga, this is the most UNLUCKY morning of my life, it was like the de ja vu of October the 13th.  *huhuhhhuhhuhhuhu*

At least in the afternoon, it was gone, in DISMISSAL time.
In the first subject I was about to get late, buti nga lang I was able to catch up. Siguro, if I was late, I would have to clean the campus... *huhuhuhhhuhuuh*

But after, that, hindi na bumalik si Mr. Unlucky to me.. YE HEY! :)

Oi, anyway, me and him( the boy I hate before) yes! before! we talked to each other nah! Then I notice, we're both OKAY! (he even pinched me in the face, called my name and he tries to hide behind the notebook). All in all we're OKAY!
and in that I'm happy, not because, we're both okay but my problems are now solved! :)

Maybe, the morning bad luck was just a sign that good luck will be with me na, I just need to smile and be happy :) ..

FCDSA week

(from November 3-6, 2010)
I travelled for 30 minutes in a jeep, with my fellow classmates to watch the First Congressional District Schools Association in the municipality of Miag-ao.. I've endured the scorching hot sun and face the crowd. I watch the parade of every municipality, though I didn't have an umbrella, tinis ko yung init. And I was wearing a very nice style.. (love it!)..

the next day, I didn't came back, because I woke up late.. anyways, I returned in time f0r the Cultural Event, it was amazing. Not only, my schoolmates participated but also one my close friend slash / classmate is one of the contestant.. He really did well! Us, his classmates are very proud of him! :)

It was a very scorching day! I also watched the Girl's basketball game, yeah! and guess who I had seen there?.. well, aparently, the guy I hate soo mUCH!! , was also watching, he talked to me! ( whatever!?)

and also I went to a college building, because me and my friends wanted to check out if the Men's volleyball team was playing.. Sadly, they weren't but!! going to that place wasn't all bad.. *smiles*

becuase there I saw,, my present crush.. at least there was a little blush2!! >-< *so kilig*

hay naku,, I still can't get his name (is it JJ or DJ?, ano ba talaga?)

anyways, he was awesome, because I haven't seen him, in quiet some time. And he was with my co-SK kagawad, I know he knows me.. *hehehehehe :3*

I also watched The Men's Basketball team(having the like-FEU jersey), it was not that good..

a few days passed, and I was amazed that it would end so fast!, and I hadn't watched the last day! especially, that was the day of the Men's Volleyball Championships.
Oh! well, I hoped them, to win! :)
I'm really expecting great from this guys!! good luck!:)

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Weekends passed, and I got the news... Well,, our municipality won the Over-all Championship Title! great right!! and the Men's Volleyball team won the Championships!! * yes*

I said it!! They would won!! I'm so proud of them!! :)

not only becuase they are my schoolmates, batchmates but also majority of them are my voters, i mean ka-brangays!! I'm sp proud to say that they are from "Brgy. Balantad, Guimbal!" and now, they will face the tougher challenge to compete in The Integrated Meet in Iloilo City. *hope they would still win!!*

All in all, the FCDSA week was awesome, NO class and They Bought home the BACON! and the GLORY!!...

Semestral Break ends.

Well, Semestral Break is over!
this sem break wasn't I expected, but then who knows, it was long... and boring!...?


but then at least I had good memories like I just won the position of SK kagawad, (i'm so happy) I hope tha government would not abolish the SK because the Youth still has a voice to speak out. I watch Ghost whisperer until the finale.. yehey! 
I think that's only the good things  I had this Sem Break.


My experiences are mostly bad. I joined one, event, my friend didn't come, she bale me out. Great!?.. whatever....
He lied to me,, you know what I mean ( if you read my previous post).
I didn't have load.. My parents are so urgh( do I need to say)
I didn't had the chance to see (in personal) my idol form Ateneo High School #15 Kiefer Ravena.
I just stayed at homE?


Well, at least I had communicate with my former classmates in my old school, they were my REAL friends not here. 


Apparently, this sem break was overall BORING.!

I never should have..

I've been through a lot lately, this sem break, is like a roller coaster ride. Going up and going down, twists and turns, it makes me SICK!..
Before the sem break started, we got into a fight, I really hated him, because he was teasing me in the wrong time, I was in a bad mood. And he even added some. Then it made me, had that "turn-off" feeling for him. I had notice, he had a bad sense of style, his character is so childish, and he thinks he so that "heartthrob" that all girls would fall for him, for short "MAYABANG" . But then the last few days of semestral break, we were texting, I asked him, if he would come to our classmate's party, he immediately said "NO" take note he said no. he asked me, if I would come, I said no too, not because he wasn't coming (well, that's one of the reason) but because the class was in a bad mood, and I was too. After the date of the party had gone, I logged in into my facebook account( the usual thing), and I came across an album of my classmate, who went to the party, I scanned the album, and guess who I saw.................. HIM! I can't believe what I had seen, then I felt like my heart was punched. I had that heavy feeling, that I wanted to cry but I had to hold it. I had to.

from Google Images

Until now, I can't believe he told a lie to me. But then, on the back of my head. Do I have even the right to be hurt? Well, he didn't only broke our friendship but also broke my heart. Maybe now, I'll just stay away from him. But how could I?, he's my schoolmate, and my classmate and worst my kabarkada. He made a mistake before, but then I was easily distracted and forgiven him easily. But I think now, It's hard to ask for an apology. Because he had hurt me so much, that I tried to erase him in my contacts, but I can't. Could I even erase him, in my mind and in my heart? I wish none of this happened, I wish I haven't known him. Maybe I'm not hurt this way. But how could I resist his friendly smile?...

from Google Images

He's the guy who makes me smile and I'm comfortable to be with but he's also the person who breaks my heart into two and makes me cry.


And the worse is, tomorrow's school. How would I face him, with smile , a broken heart or a an angry face?

My Multiply Site

http://imsuperlarh.multiply.com/

this is my multiply site.. to my followers..please.. do browse.. on it! TNX :)
love lots! :)

I MISS MY BHEST

It's been days. since I've been missing my best friend soo terribly!! I just realized that without her.. it's like my life.. is soo lonely..
Here.. in this my place.. i haven't found anyone, I can call my best friend. Someone I can lean on, and turn to.
Some of my classmates, aren't really that goods to me lately, there's like chaos in the classroom. I'm kinda sad that I think I don't belong here. That I'm out of place..
Just remembering the good times I shared with her.. makes me shed into tears.. and how I wish she was here..
I miss her soo bad.. 


I used to be happy but now.. I think I'm just lonely..
Looking at these photos makes me miss her more... and made me think what would be our realtionship, if we were not separated.. 


(these photos are all from flickr)

and even spogebob reminds me of her

this is the real me and her.. i miss u bhest!!

SEM BREAK!!

finally, 

the hell weeks are over.. 

the tearful mornings are tapos!

those cranky subjects are all over ( for the mean time )

let's all say hello to 

SEMESTRAL BREAK!!

in my sem break to do list:

• Hang-out with friends..
• Win in my SK position
• Finish my English Project ( yeah.. I hate it too!!)
• Text all the week long!!
• Internet Fun:)
• I think I'll be gaining some pounds... (oh oh!!)
• MOST IMPORTANT :

TO HAVE FUN!!! 

the day and the night before the exam

this day didn't feel like, tomorrow's gonna be my 2nd grading exam. No pressure at all.. except that.. I can't seem to understand my lessons in each subject.. well, maybe some only.. hahahahaha :))

clearances was needed but for me, it's like the teachers don't even care.. i realized that this afternoon, 'cause we only had like 1 subject and the rest was nothing, so we were like dismiss in 2 in the afternoon, but we weren't allowed to go yet.. so me and my classmates decided to do a group study.. dang! it was fun.. men!!.. my classmates are sooo smart! especially the boys.. why are you sooo intelligent??

wanna have your brains!!

well, when the guard finally opened the gate. freedom taste soo Good!

i was about to go home, when i made a stop over at my cousin's house.. (it was just like a house away from my home) ... i played with their dog named "LYKA" it was soooo CUTE!!

a little puppy,, i was very happy when i would play with her... sooo CUTE!

here are some pictures,, she won't let go of my feet.. she likes to be tickled in her tummy!! :))

and i just love pandesal @ rainy afternoons! 

and just this night time, me and my fellow teens.. who are apparently running fot SK positions .. in my group.. 

we met up and had a meeting.. i had so many things that I had discovered in one night!!

and I saw my CRUSH <3 there.. sigh!!.. so gorgeous and CUTE :3

i'm sooo hoping that our group will win, and also us.... wanna have the very big support from the voters!!

good luck to us! hope we could win this! :)

go! fight and win!

and now oh! well, i almost fogot.. tomorrows the 2nd grading exams!! goshh!! i have to study pah!! sigh.. highschool life.. teens life.. so HARD! but ENJOYABLE and FUN:)

My dream camera

Canon Powershoot G11

This is my dream camera, I am so wanting this Canon Powershoot G11... So wanna have this on my SIXTEENth birthday, next year. I wanna have high quality photos to add up more to my Photography work because my passion is capturing beautiful and unique pictures. Becasue there I can express myself.. Hope i can have this one someday.. :)

I'm keeping my hopes up!

Tama Na.

Love nga naman,, napakasakit pala. It's been a month since I had confess my love for a guy I really like, after our little awkwardness, we still remained friends. But for me it wasn't enough. Whenever I would see him, with other girls, or our classmates teasing him to his crush in the higher level it would made me feel jealous. But then I had no right to feel that way. Weeks natiis ako, trying to hide the feeling JELLYness is really hard. Super napakasakit pala ang maging FRIEND lang.!!

We would have our simple moments together,  it was cute, memorable and FUN.. we would stare at each other's eyes for minutes and not get used of it. I felt every time we do that, So happy :)

but now, it's different. 

Mahirap pala. and now, that the whole class is like against me, ang hirap feeling ko ang OP ko..

It's like i don't belong! because I think I don't nga eh!

I tried to be so friendly with them, but then in just a click everything changed.

especially with him, he made me realize that I made the wrong decision, to LOVE him..

 I was wrong. He is childish. What a fool I am. Sana hindi na alng ako nahulog sa CHARMS niya.

I am disappointed with myself. And ngayon, i would just not speak to him often. Kasi baka masasaktan pa rin ako, if I continue loving him, without having nothing in return. 

I was loving for nothing.!!

Last Wednesday

OMG!,, this week all I can say is super hectic! and I can't forget Wednesday, Oct.13 (the worst day ever!!).. it was just the super most worst day in the week ever!! ... in the morning.. I lost my cravat (until I can't find it!). 

• On Geometry class, we were about to start the class when my cellphone rang ( but I swear I put it on silent!! before I got in).. I was sooo nervous.. buti nga lang hindi kuniha ng teacher namin. At sumagot ako ng tanong. and guess what.. wrong answer!! it was the BV plus Bad trip Morning of my Junior year Life!

But in the afternoon, it still kinda continue pero konti na lang.. thank you LOrd.
Anyway, the next day and today was not even close to what happened to me last Wednesday..
Is it just my bad luck day or just coincidence?

anu magandang movie? :)

marami... pero yung sa'kin.. mga indie films.. yung JAY
sa cartoons Toy Story,, Step Up.. marami..

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search mo lang sa Fb ang twitter.. app yan kasi eh.. taska marami siya.

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Telling the truth.

It was noon time in the day September 18, of the year 2010.  I was busy texting my classmates.. 

and I was texting the person whom I considered a special one to me, he was also my classmate and a very close friend. 

We were texting, very much likely for a while now. He was the one whom I feel comfortable with, every time I would be with him. He would make me laugh.. Telling good jokes.. and especially he makes me smile. 

 

I told the my true feelings for him, but through our little communication only. He was flattered, that I really like him, but then I know he doesn't feel the same way as I am. He said, even though I told him that, he wants us to remain good friends, he understands what I feel. And I thank him for that. But then I still can't help myself that why won't he accept me. I know there are things that he really looks for a girl, and not even one of it, I had. But then it's okay, because I know someday I'll find mine.

He even quoted "MAYBE WE CAN BE TOGETHER, WE'LL SEE, ANYTHING CAN HAPPEN".

 

FALLING MY HEART OUT.

It was the birthday of my classmate at a restaurant here in our town. We all gathered there, and party all night long. It wasn't that child party, I mean hello, we're all teenagers!! not little children. okay.. anyway, there I admit to myself that I am falling in love with one of my closes friend and classmate. I can't help but fall for him, we were very close. Until that day came, it was the typical teenage birthday, karaokes, eating, partying!


We were in a different table, there I realize, he was with my classmate who was so pretty, I was so jealous. But then I just let it passed through. He looked at me, for a while. It was awesome, we were exchanging smiles, but as the party continues. He just would speak to me often, I felt out of place. Because without him, speaking to me, it's like NO FUN. And then, we went in partying, that was the part that I didn't really like the most about that day.


I was up for it, dancing with my heart out, like no one was watching. It was fun while it lasted, the music was up to the beat, then it became slow LOVE music, I notice. He was going to dance with another girl, I couldn't watch this, I said to myself. I ran out the room, and went outside. It hurts. Watching him, with another PRETTIER girl than me. it made me feel, like I was just nothing. Nothing to him, but only a little sister or just a friend? 


As I went outside, my friend, comforted me, she knew what I was going through, I was in the position of loving someone without him loving me in return. I was hurt so badly. I decided to go home, and just forget about that. I just wanna move on, and stop expecting him, to love me. Because I know, he doesn't feel the same way for me. 

Hidden Feelings.

I have this feeling for a friend of mine, but I don't think he would notice me. We're quiet close and all that, just having fun with each others company. It was quiet a while that we had bonded, like for almost 2 months we had laughing moments together. He would sometimes teased me, but it was still okay. And now, I think I suddenly had developed feelings for him, but it still won't affect him, we would still be friends because I know he doesn't like me at all, more than a friend is what I need him to be. But my wish won't be granted. EVER. Because I'm know, friends lang ang turing niya sa akin. And why would I expect more of him, he's leaving me anyway. But I know, he doesn't feel the same way, but somehow, at least he promised me, that we would still each other again soon. But I still have to hide my feelings for him. I sometimes get jealous when I would see him, with my other classmates. I kinda hurts me, and when I would always ask this simple question;

WHICH IS MORE HARDER, LETTING HIM GO OR FORGETTING HIM?

Intramurals 2010 (HINAMPANG)

It was a bright and sunny Monday (august 23,2010), when our school GNHS held its Intramural 2010... 

 I really enjoyed it... I experienced a little parade.. but what I really like the most, is the bonding time, of all sections in the Junior level... go  JUNIORS. ... also a little bonding time, with my classmates.. 

It's nice to do it again... Smile... just always smile...

Though, it only lasted for 2 days, at least it was enjoyable and memorable.. I  LOVED IT..

we  only came on 2nd place as usual!?... oh well... just be happy.,, J U N I O R S!!

I thought this was HOME.

I thought my current section now would be my new home. But I was wrong! so wrong!

Because I realized now, that they all depend on me! why??

They depend too much! especially to me!?..... Just because I was soooooo TALENTED on dancing. Why? is it my fault? di ba hindi naman!... I am sooooo PISSED off!! They are sooooo SPOILED! too much dependable on one person.. I learned my lesson, on the our Filipino project about Filming but this time!.. it's too much!?..... they are so depending on me!? I really don't understand. Why, they would do that to me!?.. I mean they could've just cooperate with me,,, I mean.. they should understand, my situation now. I am super BUSY! I can't do it all alone. You knoW!?... It's just I don't understand, why some people are like that... But I'll try to understand them,, but when it's out of hand.. and then that's the time,, I speak FRankly to them...Seriously!

Amateur Filming

Amateur Filming, well, that's what my team and I did. We are the Positive Side Productions, we have to make a film in our filipino project. We had some short comings, a little misunderstandings but in the end we survive it. We did oyr best in our film and the outcome went well. We had our fun times, Laughing out loud, I won't forget that. Bloopers are the best, though we expect to lose to the negative side, we were wrong, we even WON! I am so happy guys because without your efforts and cooperation this film wouldn't be great. Thank you. I really enjoy the bonding moments we shared, it's nice to do it again, once in a while.

Fun time at Dike

I really had a fun time with my classmates at the Dike.
Yeah.. It was windy, stormy, and it really rained(super heavy) butdespite that we continue it.. We enjoyed it so much. We're planning to do it again, but with other classmates to have twice the fun. And Mr. Sun we really need you. We all got home soaking wet. It was cold but fun, raining but enjoyable, an experience  that I would treasure. Love you guys!

My 1st horror story

“NEVER EVER”

By: Larah Trance

Never play with a ghost, that’s what others say. But my friends and I were different; ghost hunting is one of our favorite pastime. We usually do it at old schools, abandoned houses and even on a cemetery. But one night, it was different, something went wrong.

We dared each other one Friday night to scan the cemetery grounds. There was a full moon and the night was bright. As we entered the grounds, we knew that the moon would be instrumental on what we intended to do that night.

Consisting of 7 girls and one boy, we wandered through the cemetery. Lorraine, one of my friends, suddenly told us that she felt something extraordinary. We took it lightly and continued talking and joking around treating the dare simply as a game. Before reaching the gate, I felt something different. I tried to tell them that we should just leave, but they didn’t listen and even told me, that I was just scared to do it. Even though, I had that strange feeling, I continued on walking and join them.  As we were walking, my friends started joking around the tombs and pretending to be zombies.

An hour had passed and everything was still normal, my best friend and I were talking about school, while the others were playing “enter2x”. Until, Carla one my friends, suddenly collapsed. We were in shock, some of us even panicked. And Mitch, our nurse, tried to wake her up but still had no effect. We tried to go out of the cemetery to rush her, to the nearby hospital but as we tried to go out the gates suddenly closed it’s like the cemetery won’t let us out. So we decided, to let her breath and tried to wake her up. Then suddenly my friend Diane was so scared she tried opening the gate, she punched the gate, and kept on saying let us out!!  Then suddenly, as I turned my back to see if she’s still there, to my surprise she was there, but lying on the ground.  I went to her to check if she was okay, as I looked at her into her eye, she suddenly burst out and strangled me, as I looked at her. Her eyes were all white it was like she was being possessed, she kept on saying “get out of here!!” and screamed. It was the scariest thing that I have seen, she then let go of me, and I fell down on the ground and bumped my head.  

As I wake up, the first thing on my mind was where were my friends? I ignored the pain that I felt, and the next thing I knew, my head was bleeding. I wandered around the grounds to see if my friends were still there. For an hour of searching, I almost lost hoped then I saw Gino, the only guy in our group. I saw him with Mitch, Paige, Lorraine, Hillarie and Carla who’s still unconscious. I asked if Diane was ok, they answered me, and that she already died after she was possessed. At that time, I didn’t know what to do, who will be next to die, I was so confused and scared. 2 hours had passed it was 2 in the morning, we were all still shocked of what happened, then suddenly, we heard a faint scream.  Mitch and Lorraine volunteered to check if the gate has opened, I couldn’t stop them, because we had no way it our but through the gate.  As, I watched them approaching to the gate, I screamed because I saw 2 men in black suits in their backs, but I was too late to run to them. I told the group what I had seen, at first they didn’t believe me, but at the later part they did believe me that I was right. My friend Paige wants to make sure that Mitch and Lorraine were all right, she wanted to go near the gate, but I told her not to. She was hard-headed and the same things had happened to her. The only people left in the group was the four of us me, Gino, Hillarie, and Carla. We didn’t know what to do, so we just prayed and prayed until I saw a light that led us to freedom, it was a gate at the back of the cemetery but I was in shocked because it wasn’t there, when we first entered.  But despite, my feeling I led them to safety, we finally got out of that nightmare.

  A year had passed since we encountered that incident; we still didn’t know who took our friends, who were those men in black suits. One thing’s for sure, we will not go back to that creepy cemetery again. And that my friends and I will stop ghost hunting, we already learned our lesson, not to play with ghosts. And we will always treasure each other and no matter what appends we’ll still be friends and just to trust God, have faith in him, that he is their always.

School week-ed out!

well, a week had already passed since the week started. this week is so unpredictable.

at first i really really hate mathematics, i'm in junior high so i'm taking up geometry , i was told to recite but i don't know the answer, but i tried my best but she still can't get it! urgh* sometimes, that's what teachers are they can't even feel what they're students are feeling. but at the other subjects it turned out fine. then a couple of days had passed, and i was okay with it now. now, i understand, i can understand the subject it's much more easier. and on another subject, i mean seriously i really don't get it! i'm talking about chemistry. it's so hard, i mean there's like math in it! conersion of units!! then on friday, it became so easy!! that i even finished it!! miracle! anyway, i can't believe that my entry would pass the screening test for the journalism participants would pass. when the teahcer said my name, the whole class stared at me! weird! but the schedule was affeting my activities! then i have to make a story for our english presentation which we will perform on july 16!! great!?.. and i was also aked to join the jingle making contest to be the represntatives of the juniors! well, i can't resist 'cuz my good friend is encouraging me to join, so i did join. and now, i have so many work to do!! like oh my gosh!! this week is like hell! so many things to be done and need to be done!! immediately!! and did i mention, i just saw a cute smile from my cute classmate!! :) that' all for now... that ended, onw tough week in high school!!

Guimbal SKMF Basketball League

The date is June 26,2010.

The final game of the Guimbal Basketball League sponsred by the SKMF.
The game is between NANGA and SRL.
It was an intense gameat first NANGA was leading up until the 3rd quarter.
There were some pionts that SRL had gained and had a higher score than NANGA, but everytime they would score, NANGA would then follow.


At the second half, people were very attached to the game. 
Screaming of fans, and cheering for their team.
Truly, in this activity I can see that we Filipinos love watching basketball and playing it.
It is in our blood and a tradition to do it.
Because it has been a part of our life.

here are some pictures of the game:

 NANGA vs SR-L
1st quarter: 9-18
2nd quarter: 20-26
3rd quarter: 60-62
4th quarter: 66-68

Sta. Rosa- Laguna won the Guimbal SKMF basketball league.

 Awards:
 Defensive player: jersey #1 of team NANGA.
MVP: jersey #33 of team SRL "ROJO"