19.10.10

Tama Na.

Love nga naman,, napakasakit pala. It's been a month since I had confess my love for a guy I really like, after our little awkwardness, we still remained friends. But for me it wasn't enough. Whenever I would see him, with other girls, or our classmates teasing him to his crush in the higher level it would made me feel jealous. But then I had no right to feel that way. Weeks natiis ako, trying to hide the feeling JELLYness is really hard. Super napakasakit pala ang maging FRIEND lang.!!

We would have our simple moments together,  it was cute, memorable and FUN.. we would stare at each other's eyes for minutes and not get used of it. I felt every time we do that, So happy :)
but now, it's different. 

Mahirap pala. and now, that the whole class is like against me, ang hirap feeling ko ang OP ko..
It's like i don't belong! because I think I don't nga eh!
I tried to be so friendly with them, but then in just a click everything changed.
especially with him, he made me realize that I made the wrong decision, to LOVE him..
 I was wrong. He is childish. What a fool I am. Sana hindi na alng ako nahulog sa CHARMS niya.
I am disappointed with myself. And ngayon, i would just not speak to him often. Kasi baka masasaktan pa rin ako, if I continue loving him, without having nothing in return. 
I was loving for nothing.!!


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