I never should have..

I've been through a lot lately, this sem break, is like a roller coaster ride. Going up and going down, twists and turns, it makes me SICK!..
Before the sem break started, we got into a fight, I really hated him, because he was teasing me in the wrong time, I was in a bad mood. And he even added some. Then it made me, had that "turn-off" feeling for him. I had notice, he had a bad sense of style, his character is so childish, and he thinks he so that "heartthrob" that all girls would fall for him, for short "MAYABANG" . But then the last few days of semestral break, we were texting, I asked him, if he would come to our classmate's party, he immediately said "NO" take note he said no. he asked me, if I would come, I said no too, not because he wasn't coming (well, that's one of the reason) but because the class was in a bad mood, and I was too. After the date of the party had gone, I logged in into my facebook account( the usual thing), and I came across an album of my classmate, who went to the party, I scanned the album, and guess who I saw.................. HIM! I can't believe what I had seen, then I felt like my heart was punched. I had that heavy feeling, that I wanted to cry but I had to hold it. I had to.

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Until now, I can't believe he told a lie to me. But then, on the back of my head. Do I have even the right to be hurt? Well, he didn't only broke our friendship but also broke my heart. Maybe now, I'll just stay away from him. But how could I?, he's my schoolmate, and my classmate and worst my kabarkada. He made a mistake before, but then I was easily distracted and forgiven him easily. But I think now, It's hard to ask for an apology. Because he had hurt me so much, that I tried to erase him in my contacts, but I can't. Could I even erase him, in my mind and in my heart? I wish none of this happened, I wish I haven't known him. Maybe I'm not hurt this way. But how could I resist his friendly smile?...

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He's the guy who makes me smile and I'm comfortable to be with but he's also the person who breaks my heart into two and makes me cry.


And the worse is, tomorrow's school. How would I face him, with smile , a broken heart or a an angry face?